I just read a post today regarding dyslexia and I think it has to be one of the most debilitating illnesses next to anxiety. I’m not sure if I say that because I suffer from both of them. People always ask if you see words backwards or if you write backwards. They couldn’t be more wrong on that aspect of dyslexia. The easiest way for me to explain it to people is to tell them to imagine reading a book and your on page three and you don’t remember what you read on page one or two. It makes it very hard to spell and very hard to retain anything that you read. The best way for people with dyslexia to learn is by visualization or hearing. It’s especially hard whenever you’re someone like me what has a lot of business ideas but whenever it comes to putting them to work you don’t because of your dyslexia. It makes it hard to stay on task. Especially whenever the new business idea you have starts with you learning a new programming code. Anxiety kicks in just with the thought of trying to read a book. I basically don’t because I see it as a waste of time knowing that I won’t retain anything that I read. I’m reading more website articles trying to see other people’s ways of dealing with dyslexia. The main thing I need to learn is habits like creating a list and to stop procrastinating so much. I really need to sit down and make a daily list and abide by it to the T. I need to also try to manage my entire day or at least a good portion of my day with a schedule of studying, work, and relaxing so that I’m not so wired from work and business tasks.

I read a good RSS Feed from another website that talks about procrastination and other things like it.

Why is it that you’re actually only free in your decision making and do exactly what you wanted to do after something tragic happens? It could be something like a friend or family member dying that is close in age to you. You realize then for as long as your brain holds the thought that one day you will die. That even though it’s something that you don’t want to think about it’s going to happen. I’m one of those people who looks at the whole picture. People say that I should stop but I don’t. I look years into the future whenever some people are barely looking at what they’re doing the next day. I worry about dying whenever everyone is worrying if they are going to a party on the weekend. I just wish it was as easy to do what you need to and want to do to make yourself happy as it is whenever your told that your time is limited and your given a date. I guess then you’re in a rush to try to do what you never did to complete what you wanted in life. Why doesn’t everyone wake up every morning and say to themselves, “You’re not going to live till 120, so stop wasting time”? You know that you have a limited time so stop wasting the time you could be doing something that completes you. As I write this I think to myself that I don’t understand why I can’t do this. I have so many projects that I want to complete and I can’t beat myself into submission to start them. I’ve read so many books on motivation and how to be organized and they don’t help. I think that you have to basically tell yourself something and then listen to yourself say it to understand how much of a procrastinator and hypocrite you actually are.

I read a really good RSS feed regarding procrastination and perfectionism that got me motivated. I think this post has it correct that procrastination is one of the worst self destroying illness that someone can have. I luckily have someone that will push me and not, as she says sugarcoat the truth even if it offends or pisses me off. I guess that’s good because otherwise I would go through life thinking that I was doing the right thing all of the time. I guess this is my never ending battle since I have concurred my anxiety and panic disorders already, or at least pretty much only have one a month if that. Hopefully I will continue to stop procrastinating as I have a lot of projects that I’m working on and want to get them done as soon as possible and work onto the next. Wish me luck.